When I originally started writing this I was going to discuss Black Friday. It seems like such an ugly thing to talk about. A day filled with consumerism to kick start the time of year that should be about family and being grateful for one another. Don't get me wrong, I've been Black Friday shopping. Twice. I was efficient about it and only got what was on my list, but it doesn't change the fact that I willingly participated. I wouldn't take it back either.

But I keep finding myself coming back to this topic of tenacity and will power in my own life. I'm sure that on varying levels we've all experienced fluctuations. We have certain things that are no brainers and we stick with it without thinking. But there are those things that plague us. Mine seems to be an overarching umbrella of health but it really boils down to food. In my previous blog I discussed my journey through going sugar free. I may eventually get back to that in some form since it really worked for me in terms of actually maintaining a healthy "diet" and losing weight. But I seem to always have issues surrounding food.

I know it's easy to assume that I don't eat healthily. Mostly you'd be wrong. My issue was never eating healthy food. My issue has always been sugar and my inability to moderate myself in that arena. If candy and cakes never existed, I can guarantee that I would be an average, healthy person. I won't lie and say I would be the healthiest because I make a mean fried chicken, but I also crave vegetables. I keep giving myself excuses to not live the life I know I want and know I can have. Today I ended up getting mad at myself for letting myself struggle. I recommitted and wrote myself a letter so I could not only remember how I'm feeling, but also to remind myself that I am worth it.

One of the big things I put in my letter was, "Start now!" This is the thing that I have been working on implementing recently. Why wait? Anything you can do tomorrow, you can do now. I know that these are all cliché platitudes, but in all reality, it's true. I know and use in other areas of my life the idea of, "if I get it done now, then I'm free to relax." Why not apply that to all areas of my life? If I just eat healthy now, then I can stop worrying about starting.

I'm feeling good about this restart. I hope it helps others that I have put this out in the world, but it's out there in my world. I am putting the intention out into the world in multiple forms that I can access and remind myself that I am worth it. And remember, you're worth it too.